Its Friday...

Last night I fall asleep on the couch, it was around 2 something in the morning.

After I wake up, it was only her and the time is already 5.

She did not even talk to me or say anything to me, I started coughing due to the temperature,

went up to room and was about to sleep, her phone beeps...

I look at it, it was from someone I knew, it was 530 then.

She refuse to show me what's the contain but I spotted something different, the wallpaper had

change, it was no more me and her, it was her and him...

For the whole night, I sat up, crying, coughing and thinking for she knows curiosity kills me,

I can't sleep, can't rest nor even stop thinking for a while, until the morning come...

I dream...and it was a nightmare, a nightmare that for my whole life seem to be destroyed...

I dreamed of something that I never ever expected to happen...

I hope...somehow I could undo this, somehow I could save myself...

Or else, I'll be forever living in fear...

Fearing of losing you...

To all...

To all my people out there...

Read and Realize...

Wake Up and Think!


Yes...One live, Live it! Don't F*ck it...

People jumping from rooftops, drinking Clorax, cutting self and so much more, what dumb ass you guys are, think yourself in DEEP SHIT?! Think again, there are billions of other people in this world, who at the same time, facing the same SHIT, but still, they put their heads up and goes on...

We'll can do the same thing

Out of 100-200 billions of sperm produce by our dads respectfully, :)

We are the one which gets through, the strong swimmer!

Researcher mention that, for a sperm to get to the egg, its like a man swimming across the South China Sea, but not in water, its in honey-liquid form *imagine*

Appreciate your life

Do what you wanna do right away...

Love whom you wanna Love at this very second...

Think and miss those you had longed for...

Pray and repent before everything is too late...

DO NOT regret...NEVER...

All my people out there...appreciate your life

You would only had it ONCE...

Belly Dance

Bebe went to belly dance yesterday, due to nothing to do at home, I just went with her...

This is what I learned when I am there... captured a few photos...

This is my Bebe~

Some random girl with a mole
in between her bottom lips

Aunty with Jeans went to belly dance

Girls doing belly dance, yea... indeed you can see shaking or vibrating part *wink*

But this is the funny part it's not the aunty with the jeans... Just check out the video, I laugh my brain out...seriously




Yea yea, I did say, "SOOooO cute in that video" -_-"

Anyhow, I do know her, her brother to be exact, and if I am not mistaken, she already get married to a rich guy, her husband not even bad looking at all and the most important part, her husband's ride = BMW (Big Malaysian Women) WooOOoW~

So GIRLS out there, stop complaining about how fat you are and how bad you wanna get on diet,
stop saying it... overall, there is still someone bigger than you guys which still live happily!

Dead...so dead...

My blog...its so dead...so dead...




Amen...

Tagged, tagged and tagged...fuhh~

Name 20 people randomly.At the end of the survey, choose 5 people to do the survey.Don't read the questions, but name the 20 people first.

1. Cath
2. Terry
3. Alvin
4. Aaron
5. Suleen
6. Ivanna
7. Ellane
8. Godric
9. Gwenda
10. Elisha
11. Leo
12. Terrence
13. Tania
14. Carolyn
15. Tony
16. Jude
17. *long legged hair girl at tHe Spring*
18. Jeremiah (UK)
19. Jeremiah (Msia)
20. Adrian

1.) How did you meet number 18?
- Jeremiah (UK): Through the girlfriend

2.) What will you do if you have not met number 17?
- *...* I never know girl can get that much hair (boots with the fur)

3.) What if number 9 and 20 dated?
- Gwenda and Adrian? woW~ It would turn out to be explosion

4.) What if number 5 and 10 dated?
- Suleen and Elisha?: WooShh! That's what we call Msia, multiculture!

5.) Describe number 1
- Cath: There is no word for her... *wink*

6.) Do you think number 8 is attractive?
- Godric: My gosh, u should see the piture of him that I took, that's way too HOT!

7.) Describe number 7
- Ellane: poor thing

8.) Do you know any family members of 12?
- Terrence: yes, quite well as well

9.) What language does number 15 speak?
- Tony: English, Chinese and Malay

10.) Who is number 9 hanging out with?
- Gwenda, the boyfriend?

11.) How old is number 16?
- Jude: Same age

12.) When was the last time you spoke to number 13?
- Tania: outside her house doing the "AaaaAaaaaAAaa~"

13.) Who's number 2 favorite singer/band?
- Terry: All the heavy stuff, he listens to

14.) Have you ever dated number 4?
- Aaron...Hahah

15.) Would you ever date number 19?
- Miah: For football maybe

16.) Is number 3 single?
- Can try to ask Suleen...

17.) What is number 10 last name?
- Sorry to say, I really do not know

18.) Would you ever be in a relationship with number 11?
- Leo...I am Straight!

19.) What is the school of number 13?
- Tania: Swinburne

20.) Where does number 6 stay?
- Ivanna: aa....

I tag:
Alvin
ivanna
suleen
Elisha
Jia Zhen

Tv...its not only about entertainment

Dear all...

I might did not blog for long, for I run out of idea what to write, but after I read one of my long ex classmate's comment, something pop up in my mind to write what I am always good at... here goes, the second one, after Long Hard road Into Hell, sit tight, do not look back, stare at your monitor and be prepared for the thrill...

For a very brief introduction, TV, a short form for television had been invented since 1927, that's really long long time ago, by Philo Farnsworth, (some smart as* guy), it was black and white then...

Now, average of more than 90% of houses, have their own television set, from some 14" inches monitor to 40" LCD. It is all available in market nowadays, expensive, cheap, loan, credit card...in all sorts of way, public can get hold of one of it...

But let me tell you something that, you might do not want to know, really, so when there is still time, there is still a chance, you might have a TV inside your bedroom, looking at it right now...you can close this blog and go do something else, I do not advice the weak hearted reader to continue reading...



So, you insist wanna go on, well...let's go on...



I do have one at home as well, not really big, it is just some that average family could afford it, I was watching some movie at that particular time, since I am on holiday and nothing that I really can do. Night is still pretty young, eye is still not that heavy and body still contains some energy enough for few more hours.

I can't really remember what movie I was watching at that time, it was some action stuff if I am not mistaken, I was 'attached' on the screen, sitting there satisfying myself with some chips and coke, what a life...I can really chill when I just sit there with some junk food and coke, and smoke definitely, that would be it, infinite joy.

When the movie is almost going to end, I remember I was slowly falling asleep, and which earlier on, my younger brother who is watching with me, had gone to bed, left me alone sitting there, watching the action pack.
I might can finish the movie, but I did not, my eye somehow could not stand it anymore, so I decided to turn off the TV and hit my bed.

Here it all starts,

When I turn the TV off, and even I switch off the power supply making sure that everything is really dead, I walked to my bedroom whereby, I hear the TV is switch on again, no lies, it switch on by itself, I shall have no explanation for it, but just assuming that it might be me myself which is to tired until my own eye play trick on myself. So I walked back to the TV and switch it off again, and when I turn to the power supply, it is still off... second assumption, it is still me myself.

Having no second thoughts, I walked to my bedroom again, yes reader, the TV is on again...third assumption, there is definitely something very wrong, I tilted my head and looked at the TV, this time, no more action pack, it is something else, it was...

A woman...

age around 60-70 plus, wrinkles all over the face, Grey whitish hair, sad expression, very very sad...it is still fine until...

She made an eye contact with me, eye to eye and gave me a smile...

The next moment that I opened my eye, I am sitting on the couch with the TV showing some colorful lines showing that no more pro grammes is going on, I fall asleep...I smile to myself and think, what a fool I had been...

I switch off the TV, and the power supply and walked to my bedroom still thinking that, what a fool i had been...and then...

the TV switch 'itself' on again...

Not a TV fans
-Ivern Joaquin-

Long hard road INTO hell

I took this shot, nearly to midnight, nothing special about the photo, and nothing scary as well, but the place, it is a 'killer' instead. And goosebumps on me when i stop and took this photo.

It is situated some where near Bau, my hometown, this road already been there for such a long time, longer then I ever know, just that, it had been refined and repaired. But right after the road was build, there is so many things happening on that particular road, let me recall...

Incident No.1

-It happened way long before I was born. A girl, got killed on this road, that is not the shocking part, the shocking part is...how she got killed. She was on her way down to Kuching by bus, and on this road, with unknown reasons, she put her head out to look at something, but neither she knew that, there was another bus coming up front, since the road is pretty narrow that time, the other bus eventually, ripped her head off... this is not a fiction story. It was on paper for weeks...


Incident No.2 (related to no. 1)

- Ever since the incident of the girl being killed, every passenger which pass the road, saw some one, sitting on the tree up high, and its without head, the old road is very very near to a jungle with trees of hundreds years old which had been cleared. This incident is not supported by evidence.


Incident No. 3

- One very early morning on the year 2005-06. An old lady taking an early walk some where lower part of the newly build road (that time). She was crossing the road to get to the other side, she crossed it, she was walking at the very very side of the road, which mean, she cannot being hit by any car that is passing by. But...one car, drove by some drunker come from behind somehow knocked her, and kill her instantly...One of her eyes, flew off and never being found ever since. Not even until today. She died in tragic.


Incident No. 4 (related to No. 3)

-Driver which drove pass the road, sometimes, early in the morning or very late at night, somehow, saw a figure of an old lady squashing down on the middle of the road and showing an action which seem like looking for something...She still can be seen until today, although I never saw it.


Incident No.5

- Latest one, of the road killing, a whole family of five in a car being hit from the side by incoming car. One teen inside the car, flew off from the side door and hits down the road 10 meters away from the car. Now imagine the impact. Weird thing, the car did not see any car coming from the other side which is very impossible because it happened at night fall time, no matter how dim is your car's head light, you still can see because there used to be pitch black.


Rumors say that, the road is thirsty for blood, each year, a life must being sacrifice on that particular road to satisfied 'him', who will be the next? Driver out there, please, drive safe...especially when you are coming here...



Now, look properly again into the picture (the last one)...nothing? There is nothing...But, you can feel the 'presence'...you see nothing, but they saw you...

Having lotsa goosebumps
-Ivern Joaquin-

Happy birthday~

First, here comes the normal type of blog~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Jia Zhen, one year older already...
from this day onwards, life full with rocks waiting for you in the future, things going to be harder for you, real hard~ but no worries, you still got your family members...friends...and a lot more to back you up and push you forward to see you excel in you on life. I know, I know, I sound like some old guy nagging to the kids or whatever, I am OLDER ma~ ok, ok...no craps, this is the pictures and a real surprise.

Yesh, the candid shot of the birthday girl


Me, the birthday girl and MY girl
(yes, the surprise is, I AM BALD!)

Saying hapie Hepii Birthday!
-Ivern Joaquin-

Three Kingdom!!!

Latest movie that I just went to watch the other day! I am going to write out the preview, cause I am a big fan of the three kingdoms!

Here we go...



The movie starring Andy Lao as Zhao Zilong, the main character in the movie, Sammo Hung as Ping Ann the sworn brother of Zilong also as the movie's action director and Maggie Q as Cao Ying, Cao Cao's granddaughter which is the bad guy in the movie.

Story Line

Movie started with the birth of the warrior of the Shu's kingdom, Zhao Zilong.
He fought countless battles for his king, Liu Bei alongside with the King sworn brothers, Guan Yu and Zhang Fei.

Eversince he bought back the prince from being killed by the army of the other kingdom, he had been famous among his villagers and the king put 110% trustworthy onto him.

Fighting endless battles, he finally earned his high rank in the kingdom, as the 5 Greatest warriors which consists of Guan Yu, Zhang Fei, Huang and Wu.

He fought with Cao Ying at the climax's of the movie, he kill 4 sons of one of Cao Ying's general but leads the whole troop into the face of death thanks to someone who betray the family.

Endless army of Cao Ying against Zilong standing alone. He fight the battle himself at the end. Showing him with his horse ragging towards Cao Ying's troop is the full stop of the movie.

Pros

-Movie with great action with lines of great actors such as Andy Lau, Sammo Hung and Maggie Q.

-Lots of action, chopping off humans head, poking a sword into a soldier's stomach, blood shedding everywhere!

-Movie base on history of the three kingdom, the most interesting history of all time. Great warriors like Guan Yu, Zhang Fei, Liu Bei etc came to LIFE!

-For die hard fans of the game, dynasty warriors, you would probably love this movie a lot, especially when you can see the character you love inside the game came in a form of real guy!

But then...

Cons

-Movie consists too much fake characters, there is no such character in the real history name Cao Ying (Cao Cao's granddaughter), she does not even exists! Whereby in the movie, she's the center of attention in the end!

-Explosives in the movie does not make any sense, At 200 AD, people already start producing explosives?

-Zilong, the great warrior, die because of old age, around 70-75 (as written down) NOT BECAUSE OF KILLED IN A BATTLE. His last fought battle in the killing of the the four sons and the father! Whereby in the movie the father (general of Cao Ying) died because of the explosion.

-The real fact, Zilong never lose even one battle! In the movie, he lost his final battle!

-The costume inside the movie, soldiers look more like Japanese soldiers compare to Chinese, what's the director comment? "Japanese soldiers being influence by Chinese's soldiers.

Pictures.

Liu Bei
(King of Shu-Great leader)

Guan Yu
(Sworn Brother of Liu Bei-great warrior and fighter)



Zhang Fei
(Also the sworn brother of Liu Bei-Hot tempered man)



Zhao Zilong
(the main character in the movie play by Andy Lau)



Cao Cao
(King of the Wei)


Zhuge Liang
(Not forgetting Liu Bei's prime minister, the most intelligent guy)

If I die tonight...

What if I die tonight...? Would anyone cry for me? Would anyone undress me, give me a bath and put suit on me? Would anyone pay a last visit for me? Would anyone come to my funeral and bid me goodbye for the last time? Would anyone come to attend my funeral mass and give their speech for me? Would anyone come and gives me flowers? Would anyone come and comfort my parents saying that everything is going to be alright? Would all of my family members come back from everywhere to take a final look at my face? Would you...be there?

What if I die tonight...? Would I cry myself? Would I see myself lying in the coffin made of wood and I cannot do a thing? Would I see people around me and they are deaf towards my words? Would I be reaching some places which I am not familiar with? Would I be meeting those whom had passed away? Would I be guarded for judgment? Would I be sentence for punishment? Would I...be sent to Hell?

What if I die tonight...? Who would be keeping my beloved computer? Would it be sold? Would it be re-formatted and all my stupid porns and pictures be deleted? How bout my baby My vi? Would mummy learn how to drive and drive it to work? What would happen to my sneakers? Who would wear the big size of 10/11? How bout my football jerseys and football shoes? Would it be ended up inside the rubbish bin cause no one in my family actually like football? How bout my shirts? Jeans? Would it be donated to the church? Would my brothers wear it? How bout all my favorite boxers? Nobody in my family wear boxer either? Were could it be ended up at? How bout all my other stuff?

What if I die tonight...? Would she cry for me? How long? How bad? After long, how would she be? Would she cry in the middle of the night and say she miss me? Would she ever go and watch people play football and grumble at the side? Would she request for all my attires and shoes to bring back to her own room and recall back all the time she saw me wearing all those? Would she be holding hand with another guy's hand walking into McD to order Sundae? Would I see that, and keep the jealousy only for myself? Would she keep all the pictures of us for a while and throw it away when the new boyfriend requested it to be burn, throw or destroy? Would she even remember the past memories of us? Years after my death, would she have a family with a guy that she love the most and raise a family with sons by the name of Sean, Ian, Ivan...and with family of the father's name added with a Jr at the back? Would she still be hanging out with all my buddies? Would she recall the bad times of her with me when she saw the mahjong's tiles, or snooker-Q? Would she remember me when she hear Wu Bai's song inside the new boyfriend's car? Would she remember the time if she visited Pop Wave again and sing all those songs which I ever sang before? Would she remember all those? Will she visit Permai again with the new boyfriend with her friends and bury the new guy as the same as she ever did to me? Would she forgets me?

What if I die tonight...?

There would be thousands of question I could ask if there's space...but shall be none of the question be answered, shall I hear nothing after the be going, shall I see nothing after the goodbye unsaid, I shall know exactly nothing...

In case of all those, people out there, please only bid goodbye at my grave, crave my smile not tears in your mind, forget the past, keep the sweets, live on, I am not your life, you shall go on without me by your side, I shall see you again somewhere else when its time...if only I die tonight...

People out there, live everyday like it is your last, do not do tomorrow what you can do today, do not live for regrets in the future when you can solve today, live your life to the fullest, keep yourselves happy, let the people around you brings only smile onto your face...cause, nobody knows, when they are bidding the final goodbyes...

Bidding everday
-Ivern Joaquin-

Dedicated to whom which I never ever wanted to dedicated this to...

Confusing? It does sound a bit confusing to me, cause me myself do not even know what the hell am I talking about. But definately, I still know to whom this blog I am writing to.

As it says, dedicated to someone which I never ever wanted to...

"Puuuiii!!!", to whom which is in my head right now, I know YOU did exactly nothing wrong to me, but YOU did semething more serious then you ever realise.

Since the first date going with HER, I already heard about YOU. Its more then half year have passes, but yet, YOUR name still going in and around me, like FLIES around CORPSE.

"IT IS FU*KING BOTHERING!"

I wanted YOU, some how to get the fu*k outta my life, but I realise it cannot be done, just like how we cannot forget how PARAMESWARA found Malacca.

GREAT~

Malacca...heard YOU are flying there. How I wish YOU were with the same plane with some stupid terrorist which is trying to fly the plane with some 30 mins manual book bought from Sunday Market. I'll be as glad as Bush when he just bomb Iraq.

I just wish that YOU drop dead, I sound mean, yes I do, yes I do...I sound bad and ridiculous, yes I am but c'mon, as if readers never have this kinda hatred before which you just wish someone to drop dead right in front of you or in some kinda newpaper you read early in the morning, well, I mean someone other then your family member that you really hate.

Gosh, I sound emotional inside here, with neither one point why am I saying all this...I did realise something, everyone who read this, happens to know HIM and ME, really well, I mean...please raise your guns and shot HIM dead, YOU'll be heavily rewarded...(as if you guys would)...

Please, please say no more of HIM or the rest, let the past, remain in the past, let history be history, let Parameswara have a nice sleep in his grave. I shall hear no more from anybody, anywhere or anyhow about HIM, because, simply say, I GIVE A FU*K ABOUT MYSELF! but not a FU*K about HIM, so, FU*K YOURself up...

-reading newpaper everyday hoping
a fu*kin plane would crash carrying YOU-
Ivern Joaquin...

Suck Into The GraveOfLove

Fallen deep deep down inside,

Suck hard stick hard...

I thought I never could ever be,

Being strike hard by the Cupid's arrow,

I just being strike one...

Its hard, its sharp, its beautifool,

to be fooled by the beauty of it,

I ain't saying it is painful,

But it is in another angle,

I miss everything that we had done,

But yet I felt so ridiculous having to read what you wrote,

For someone which is not me...

The hatred build so strongly within myself...

I wish I could somehow unborn him...

Its just because,

I am so deeply suck into the GraveOfLove...with u (meow meow~)

-Kim-

The Beginning...for the year 08

Before anything, I wanted to apologize for all those keep coming in, and see nothing inside here...I am really really sorry for all those, especially the part that I did not update my blog...

I am actually, waiting for my new phone, so that I can take a lot of pictures to be posted up inside here, but the thing is, it seems to be, TOMORROW NEVER COME.

But still, for now, I insist that I wanted to update, so for the new year, I just wanted to do one thing, and only one thing for now,

Something for my baby...

Its a new year,
A new fresh start of everything,
A new phrase, a new vows, a new motive of life,
A new way of thoughts, style and fate,
So many things is going to be change...

So many new things will come,
So many obstacle will appear,
So many hard time will we face,
So many new things we'll have to explore,

But there is going to be only one thing,
Which will remain old,
Remain to be the same way it used to be,
Like from the very first day,

It never change,
It never will...
It never will fade, blown away or whatever,
It is still the same old one like the first time,
The first time of you...and me...
Become Us...

Its yours...my...
Love...

Like how we start from the very beginning my baby...

-For all my men out there, have a great new year onwards, our brotherhood still maintain the same old great way, which I hope it can last for years to come...-

-For my family, thanks for the hospitality all these years, I could never pay back for all those that I owned you guys, I only can send up my prayers...hoping that He could repay you all for me, I love u all!-

-For my haters, backstabber, gossipers and all those whom wish I just die, I appreciate all those that you guys had done in the previous year(s), I might not be like what I am now without those hates in you guys. I believe, with those hates, I manage to be the great me, now, on this present day. Still, thank you...-

-For those...never mind, for all those which is reading and not classified in any of the class as above, I still wanted to thank you guys, first, is because of the visit in this website...and still, want to wish you all, have a great year onwards!-

Signing out for NEW YEAR!!!
-Ivern Joaquin-

22nd Anual Dinner of F.O.

People, do not get it wrong, it is not, F*ck Off...it is Farmer Organization.

well, well...well...I went to the dinner on my father's request. I might be some funny and crazy kinda guy...but well...who do not want to go for a free dinner right? (its being held at Holiday Inn some more...wah~) so, I went there with my girlfriend, since the invitation is for two...but then, my father told me that, he is invited without cards or anything like that, so, he told me just to go...and look for some guy name Tadro...so, well, who cares...I just wanna eat!

ARRIVAL

Electronic greeting woor

So embarrassed to say...I reach there around 7 after waiting my girlfriend to get everything done, when the dinner actually start at 7, I being searching the ballroom like idiot, and in the end, I found it after I call the guy that my father asked me to call. well well well...I saw this on the entry...not bad~ farmer organization with electronic greeting...WaiSeh~ well, more interesting things is on the way~

I being led to some seat by some woman at my mother's age...heheh, she told me that, everyone sitting at this particular table is a supplier (for more information, my father is a supplier as well), so I sat down, and took some more pictures...

the stage look like this, from my seat...

The stage look like this

with some, stage, music instrument, well, it look kinda advanced for me dough.
one more thing, do notice those people that attended the dinner, the dress code, formal or at least, dress like 'PARLIAMENT' people like that...I purposely took this guy picture...

Mr Karaoke

Walao~ like Kerabat Diraja like that, wahahah...mind the hairy hairy thing on the top right corner, its my girlfriend's hair...he wear kinda formal...no no...really formal and I do not know, he did this purposely or not...because, in the end, when people is invited to sing, he is the first one to go up...I wonder it is connected or not...

and this is the Ministers, YBs and some BIG BIG officer...after they being seated, which officially marked, the starting of dinner...YEAH!!!

The Ministers and Big Shots...

well...I am so anxious for the first plate of food, I wonder how it looks like, suddenly...the light goes off...as if it is blackout like that, I am kinda shocked but nobody scream or shout so...I smell rats...and there goes the rat, people coming in from another door bringing the...FIRST MEAL!!!

First Plate

Without waiting and hesitating, I 'attack!!' hahah, eating without minding who is around me, (maybe there is some millionaire or what sitting beside me duh~ since all business man ma) I only took the first plate picture, cause, too busy eating, so I did not manage to take the rest...until this...

look like...

It is some, sea cucumber with nuts...but my girlfriend says it looks so wrong...I wonder what look so wrong with the food...(wink*)

then, comes the boring part...SPEECH~

even Mr Karaoke (the guy in yellow shirt) fall asleep

It is kinda boring since, I do not really know what is that guy standing up there talking about, what I know is, he is kinda big shot duh~

if not, while people sitting at his table need to stand up while he sit down?

but then, luckily, got this, to cover...the numbness of speech

Rentak Menua

singing!!! luckily...fuhh~ this band named, Rentak Menua...play good music duh~ they played some songs like, 'I did it my way', 'How can I tell her about you' and so many other oldies and Iban songs as well...

and this funny incident came along as well, this guy is the one sitting to my girlfriend's right, he was eating butter prawn then...notice...how he use the chopsticks...

New Method of using chopsticks

and I think the food is too delicious until he do not know that I took his picture... (dude, if you do read this blog, sorry yeah...but you do attract my attention with that chopsticks new method of using)

After that, nothing special going on, we leave the dinner before it ends, and one more...this is how I look like that night...

My dress code

I think those sitting with me, must being wondering, how did I get in...

after that...the vaining process took the place...

The End


The only one that wears BANDANA that night...

-Ivan Joachim-

Thanks for everything...

Assume today is still 31-10 alright?

Yesterday was the worst day that I could spent my whole life, my baby told me that, she would be busy on this holiday cause she have to take care of her niece since nobody is going to look after her on this school holiday, and the 'duty' start right after the end of final. When I heard this, I was like..."what the...!" well...31-10 is the date that I was born 19 years ago, wow...19 years already? hmpph... well, since she is helping the family member...what else, Im going to say right? I am really speechless...well, I might just have to accept that the fact that, I am going to have a dull holiday and birthday as well...

the eve of final was even worst, one of my friend called my up and ask me to join him for some heavy beverage, on his bill, but with a very upset voice, I just have to say, "I am sorry my man, I cannot make it, I have final on the next day..." fine, that is like kinda bad already, its okay...but then, I still have to do my revesion for my Information Technology 2 on the incoming days, and yet, I still have nothing in my mind...so I kept doing and forcing myself to memorize and revise, until I fall asleep at 6 or 7 something in the morning...

But I did not sleep long, not long after that, I woke up, because my head-phone is still on my head...and then, I go do something, for my dad...to keep the crap short, the whole damn day including the exam...SUCKS~

But this is what happen on that evening...
Incident No. 1

I was at Wattana, third mile with some of my friends playing snooker, well, it is definitely not celebrating but we are just hanging out like we used to do, and then my phone rang and it's my baby...she told me that her car's plate number disappear and it is without a trace. so the daddy scold her and she is not happy with it, so she wanted me to be there...so from Wattana, I quickly rush over to her house...I do not take a long time, since she say she is waiting me inside the car. I was kinda quiet at that time, cause the weather is not that good, it's been raining since I started my final examination until now. what I told myself is, "what a 'nice' birthday". she been complaining about the matter just now, and suddenly, she say, she felt no nice driving with hills, and ask me to go and get some slipper for her from the boots, so...we drive all the way, until we reach airport, so I get down and she opened up the boot for me, to take her stuff, when I cranked up that boot, there it is... a box of persent and also a cake... I am really speechless until then, I never really that happy when she prepare stuff like that...this is my very FIRST time!!!

Incident No. 2

So we chit and chat inside the car, she gave me a Vincci watch, the watch which I say it is nice when she bought her shoe the other day...well, I do really like the watch duh~ it seem so cool, some more it is black. and then we drove away from airport and then she claimed that she is quite hungry and needed some food, I say, so we go and get some food, she drive all the way up until 4 and a half mile, she still go and ask me, where do you wanna eat? I just simply say, we tapao, and we go back eat, having some private time together ma... but then, she drive just like she have the destination to go....well, yes, I am still another fool which d not know that, thing still keep on coming on... and then, we got down from the car and walk to some restaurant name Isabella...something like that, if I am not mistaken...while we walked to the restaurant... suddenly she hug me and say..."actually, your friend is here~!" I am officially being punk'd by my own girl...another time, which left me speechless...

well...until then, we were having some nice time, I am going to re-edit this post with some picture, since I am quita sober now...peace!

Thanks for whatever that you had done for me my darling...I really do appreciate it, I always will...and liked I said...I always wanted to spent my birthday with you, not only because of what you had done tonight, is what you had done to me, all this while...lubb u!

burfdayboy
-Ivan Joachim-

I wanna treasure you...

The time now is, 5.51am in the morning, it was raining outside, it was cold, chilling and just nice to lie your head on your pillow and get some good sleep. just to describe how the situation is like right now.

But that is not the point, I was up doing my revision earlier on. Well, I am having my final exam right now. I gotta so some revision, I do not want to fail and waste my beloved father's money...he work hard and earned that money like he never does, and he did it for the family. Well, well...let me turned myself back first.

I stop my revision half way, I decided to take a break, a sip of my tea and clear my mind for a while, so I click on some on the blogs...I ended up here...

http://www.xanga.com/jiggleyCherrie

I read things inside, well, to my worst disappointment of the day, I read of something which make me feel bad, I would not want to talk about this. I know I should not, but well...I am still human...I am still being made by flesh, blood, and...feelings as well...I am jealous, like how much you do not like to talk about my ex-es, i do not like it the same way you do baby. I apologize that...

And what comes to worst, my mood of revising all the stuff that I missed, I threw away all my books and silently cried, I do not know why, I just do not like the read some phrase saying, "I miss you...babe" while I know it is not me...

It is complicated, I understand readers, but please keep on going, my words might going to change your way of thinking after this....

My whole mood crash yet I do not want to sms or call her and talk about it, cause I know, things would not work that way. So I just keep things to myself and be quiet...

Well, I did not sleep then, I keep on memorizing stuff that I read moments before that...I just could not sleep...I told myself, "its useless to stay like this" so I sat up and click on my mouse, the PPstream icon, I clicked on it, and I plan to watch some movies online until then.

I view on some movies on the list...and then, this movie came in, "Click" by Adam Sandler, I hope I got his name correct. well, my girl talks about this movie few days back, but I never really pay attention on it, since I cannot watch the movie with her until then. but now, it came out in the list, and it seems like, it is more interesting than other movie, so I click on it, wait for a few seconds and pop, the movie is ready to watch. So, i watch it, for readers which whom have not watch it, go and watch it, get some dvds or whatever, just go and get it.

I cannot really say or summarize the all movie out, but out of 10 stars, I gave it 9, well, not really much movie that gave tears on my eyes duh~

So, while watching the movie especially, when Michael Newman (Adam Sandler) and his wife (Kate B.) came on the husband and wife scene, my darling keeps on appearing in my mind...and its really really much, it just, KaBoom!!! hit me hard!!!

after finish watching the movie, I just completely have one kinda, new thinking going on in my mind. and the good part about it, it is a Positive kinda!!!

Here it goes, I wanna tell my dearest, beloved darling that, I love her, no matter what and no matter how, how stormy is the situation that we must go through in the future, I do not f**king care...I just do not care, what I care is, I just wanna be with you, until the end of time, until your breast drag the floor, your vagina gone loose, or whatever heck...I just do not care...all I want is your heart which beats every single moment and mind which every single second is thinking about me, that's all I need! I want to be with you every single second which I can for you, to hear your heart beat near to mine, to have your breast rest on my chest, I do not mean to sound lust...I just wanna show how much I love my baby. I just cannot imagine, just cannot think, what if one day, she left me, and gone with another guy (a scene in the movie whereby, the wife left Adam Sandler). I would do the same thing as he did in the movie, kick him in the groins...I would definitely do that...but well, that would not happen, cause I ain't leaving her nor making her to leave me...No, no...no...

like what I had said earlier on tonight baby...

Until Death do Us apart...

I wanna treasure you like I never treasure anyone before...I wanna hug you tight whenever I can, I wanna kiss your sweet reddish lips whenever I am around...and my love for u, its like a tree...it grows every single second...

besides that, I wanna thanks my family, especially my father and mother,

Pa, (although he might not be reading this)

I know I had not being a good son of yours, I might only know how to spend your hard earned money and not appreciating it...but in my heart, I always got you as my support, mentally and physically...and you are the best I got, whenever I am down, I always got your words with me, "no matter what you are deciding for your life, daddy always will support you". thanks, pa...

Mummy,

I know, its hard to give the birth to me, although, I might be the lightest among all my brothers, but it still hurts, I know...and last time, after the accident which make my head with some bad injuries, some family members said that I might not be a 'smart' guy when I grew up...but you never listen to them and still raised me like a precious...and I am proud of you, I grew up and be a big guy with some good results in school, I do not disappoint you overall...I cried badly thinking about it, even now writing it...
I cannot express anything out...I just love you mom... I really do...

and now...I know...how important, my baby, and my family is to me, they are my support, my root, my everything, and simply...they are my life...thanks~

Showing love
-Ivan Joachim

Made for her, only Her...

The sweetest murderer which took away my life,
The most loving stealer which stole my heart,

Shall not, I wanted this sweet and sour time to end,
Because I wanted you to be the marking of the end of my relationship,
The marking of the beginning of the end,
I might be the one which not understand you much,
Might be sensitive when needed not,
Might be fool in using words and expressing myself,

Because I am too stupid,
Idiot, fool...cause I had been blinded of you,
I shall not know what is my priority in life,
I shall not make a list of what to wish,
Cause you and your name, crowned the place, and eternally will,

If I could, dig out my heart and show you,
To prove that, you are the one causes it to beats every second,
To show that, without you, I can't even breathe a gasp of air,
Can't even eat a piece of food, not even a droplet of water,

Although in a very short time, you had conquer my all,
Every inch of this heart, every line of my vines,
My all is your all...loose you, just simply means,
THE END...of everything.

Babe~ I apologize on what I had done...
Apologize on what I had said,
Apologize on every single sins I had committed,
Every pain that I had cut...

I really do not mean it...I am sorry, but...

I LOVE YOU

I love my NAME!!!

Jo·a·chim /ˈyoʊɑxɪm, yoʊˈɑ-/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[ho-ah-khim, hoh-ah-]

That is how my name should be pronounce, in proper written, its HOAKIM...

Well, it is cool rite? hahaha, before I found out that my name is unique, first, I blame my parent for naming me, with such a weird name, why just do not name me with some simply yet easy to pronounce name, such as, Aaron (man, no offense!), John (daddy's name, wahaha) Robert? or David? There is so much more name that they can name after their new born eldest son...

I just do not understand that much then, until...

I visited one church at Bukit Mertajam, Pulau Pinang, last year, it was a church built on a small hill, a small church but claim by its committee that, it is a church which full of blessing and bliss. People always get cured of sickness, disease or whatever, when they pray very hard there. And what is more interesting, when it came to St. XXX Day, people would came here, all around the nation, to gather here, just to light a candle and place it all over the place and on night time, the whole hill, fulfilled with candle lights! which is definitely, an image which you could never forget!

Back to the topic, when I walk around in the church, I found out my name, belong to a Saint, yes, St. Joachim. Father of our Virgin Mother Mary... I was like, so shock and could not say anything until then, then...I was very proud of my name... well, a name which belong to such important person...who is not proud of it right?

Other than this, when I went online to browse around, I also found out that my name also belong to Joseph Joachim, a very famous and popular, Hungarian, music composer and producer. Woah~ seem like this name, Joachim, ain't just a simple name...

Than, I start to telling people around about my name, how to pronounce it, the history of the name, and not many people can have this kinda unique name!

Well...do you like your name my dear readers?

(Problem uploading pics, maybe few more days after this, sorry!)

In Memory of Father Joachim Phang (the one who baptized me)
-Ivan Joachim-

Tagged By My Babe~

LIST OUT THE TOP 5 PRESENT YOU WISH FOR
:: 1. More time with her
:: 2. New handphone
:: 3. More money
:: 4. IPod
:: 5. A new wallet?

THE PERSON WHO TAGG-ED YOU IS
:: My Babe, Cathelene Chong

YOUR 5 IMPRESSIONS OF HER
:: 1. Perfect
:: 2. Beautiful
:: 3. Sexy
:: 4. Hot
:: 5. Tall enough for me!!!

MOST MEMORABLE THINGS SHE HAS DONE FOR YOU
:: Giving me, her everything! well~ its really everything

THE MOST MEMORABLE WORDS SHE HAS SAID TO YOU
:: "yes" when she agreed to be mine, =P

IF SHE BECOMES YOUR LOVER , YOU WILL
:: she is my lover!

IF SHE BECOMES YOUR LOVER , THEY HAVE TO IMPROVE ON
:: who is they? they is who?

IF SHE BECOMES YOUR ENERMY , YOU WILL
:: I never wanted to...

IF SHE BECOMES YOUR ENERMY , THE REASON WILL BE
:: I hurt her badly, or the other way round, Im just saying, cause it will never happen!

PASS THIS QUIZ TO 1O PEOPLE THAT YOUS WISH TO KNOW HOW THEY FEEL ABOUT YOU
1. Cathelene back?
2. Apui (Alvin Yap)
3. Suleen
4. Eli Shares~
5. Doreen
6. Vincent
7. Cherling
8. Chai Loon (although u dun blog here!)
9 GiaChery
10. Henry

( *if only all of the 10 is reading this* )

1. WHO IS NO.7 HAVING RELATIONSHIP WITH ?
:: Melvin, I think this is how to spell his name

2. WHO IS NO.9 HAVING RELATIONSHIP WITH ?
:: I miss contact with him, for some a time, but I know he had a new one! woo~ where to go man!

3. IF NO.9 nd NO10 ARE TOGETHER , WILL IT BE A GOOD THING ?
:: Gay?! I do not know duh~

4. WHAT ABOUT NO1 nd NO5 ?
:: they are in relationship, sista ma~

5. WHAT IS NO3 STUDYING ?
:: Foundation in Business

6. WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOUS CHATT-ED WITH NO6 ?
:: never...I just stare him...hahah

7. DOES NO4 WORK ?
:: Nope

8. DOES NO8 HAVE ANY COUSIN IN HER OWN SCHOOL ?
:: I do not think so

9. WILL YOU WOO NO8 ?
:: No! sorry, im on someone badly already

10. HOW BOUT NO5 ?
:: Hell no!

11. DOES NO2 HAVE ANY SIBLINGS ?
:: one elder bro n a sister

12. HOW DID YOU GET TO KNOW NO3 AND NO4 ?
:: in SwinBurne

13. WHERE DOES NO1 LIVE AT ?
:: Jln Song, yeah, I hope I can live nearer as well

14. HOW YOUS GET TO KNOW NO.2 ?
:: SwinBurne as well

15. IS NO5 SEXIEST PERSON IN THE WORLD ?
:: Sori doreen, but I gotta say...my Babe is the sexiest

Suicide is Painless...

STRESS is 'killing' a lot of people nowadays, whom just cannot cope up with their stress, cannot find a way to relieve it, for sure...they are going to use the alternative way...

Definitely, my subject today is pointing to TEENAGERS. Somehow there is a lot of teenagers nowadays...just cannot cope up with their stress.

Stress from FAMILY, STUDY, FRIENDS and so on... there is a lot of thing running wild in their mind, making them to jump into making such decision...


MARILYN MANSON
SUICIDE IS PAINLESS (LYRICS)

"Suicide Is Painless"

Through early morning fog I see
Visions of the things to be
The pains that are withheld for me
I realize and I can see...

That suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
And I can take or leave it if I please

The game of life is hard to play
I'm gonna lose it anyway
The losing card I'll someday lay
So this is all I have to say

Suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
And I can take or leave it if I please

The sword of time will pierce our skins
It doesn't hurt when it begins
But as it works its way on in
The pain grows stronger...watch it grin, but...

Suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
And I can take or leave it if I please

A brave man once requested me
To answer questions that are key
Is it to be or not to be
And I replied 'oh why ask me?'

And suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
And I can take or leave it if I please

...and you can do the same thing if you please

You see...some more with this kinda, song...no support from people around you...you are on your own, no wonder, many teenager die this way, but to all this kinda people out there, do you think, it is worth it to get rid of your own life?

Okay, do not consider about your own life, but at least that you think about people around you? your parent? your favorite uncle or auntie? or your loved one?

Message to all people put there! think twice before you make any decision...it is not only you, facing the world, having all odds going against you, there is people worse than you are...

so think...before you...

Marilyn Manson Fan:
Ivan Joachim