I wanna treasure you...

The time now is, 5.51am in the morning, it was raining outside, it was cold, chilling and just nice to lie your head on your pillow and get some good sleep. just to describe how the situation is like right now.

But that is not the point, I was up doing my revision earlier on. Well, I am having my final exam right now. I gotta so some revision, I do not want to fail and waste my beloved father's money...he work hard and earned that money like he never does, and he did it for the family. Well, well...let me turned myself back first.

I stop my revision half way, I decided to take a break, a sip of my tea and clear my mind for a while, so I click on some on the blogs...I ended up here...

http://www.xanga.com/jiggleyCherrie

I read things inside, well, to my worst disappointment of the day, I read of something which make me feel bad, I would not want to talk about this. I know I should not, but well...I am still human...I am still being made by flesh, blood, and...feelings as well...I am jealous, like how much you do not like to talk about my ex-es, i do not like it the same way you do baby. I apologize that...

And what comes to worst, my mood of revising all the stuff that I missed, I threw away all my books and silently cried, I do not know why, I just do not like the read some phrase saying, "I miss you...babe" while I know it is not me...

It is complicated, I understand readers, but please keep on going, my words might going to change your way of thinking after this....

My whole mood crash yet I do not want to sms or call her and talk about it, cause I know, things would not work that way. So I just keep things to myself and be quiet...

Well, I did not sleep then, I keep on memorizing stuff that I read moments before that...I just could not sleep...I told myself, "its useless to stay like this" so I sat up and click on my mouse, the PPstream icon, I clicked on it, and I plan to watch some movies online until then.

I view on some movies on the list...and then, this movie came in, "Click" by Adam Sandler, I hope I got his name correct. well, my girl talks about this movie few days back, but I never really pay attention on it, since I cannot watch the movie with her until then. but now, it came out in the list, and it seems like, it is more interesting than other movie, so I click on it, wait for a few seconds and pop, the movie is ready to watch. So, i watch it, for readers which whom have not watch it, go and watch it, get some dvds or whatever, just go and get it.

I cannot really say or summarize the all movie out, but out of 10 stars, I gave it 9, well, not really much movie that gave tears on my eyes duh~

So, while watching the movie especially, when Michael Newman (Adam Sandler) and his wife (Kate B.) came on the husband and wife scene, my darling keeps on appearing in my mind...and its really really much, it just, KaBoom!!! hit me hard!!!

after finish watching the movie, I just completely have one kinda, new thinking going on in my mind. and the good part about it, it is a Positive kinda!!!

Here it goes, I wanna tell my dearest, beloved darling that, I love her, no matter what and no matter how, how stormy is the situation that we must go through in the future, I do not f**king care...I just do not care, what I care is, I just wanna be with you, until the end of time, until your breast drag the floor, your vagina gone loose, or whatever heck...I just do not care...all I want is your heart which beats every single moment and mind which every single second is thinking about me, that's all I need! I want to be with you every single second which I can for you, to hear your heart beat near to mine, to have your breast rest on my chest, I do not mean to sound lust...I just wanna show how much I love my baby. I just cannot imagine, just cannot think, what if one day, she left me, and gone with another guy (a scene in the movie whereby, the wife left Adam Sandler). I would do the same thing as he did in the movie, kick him in the groins...I would definitely do that...but well, that would not happen, cause I ain't leaving her nor making her to leave me...No, no...no...

like what I had said earlier on tonight baby...

Until Death do Us apart...

I wanna treasure you like I never treasure anyone before...I wanna hug you tight whenever I can, I wanna kiss your sweet reddish lips whenever I am around...and my love for u, its like a tree...it grows every single second...

besides that, I wanna thanks my family, especially my father and mother,

Pa, (although he might not be reading this)

I know I had not being a good son of yours, I might only know how to spend your hard earned money and not appreciating it...but in my heart, I always got you as my support, mentally and physically...and you are the best I got, whenever I am down, I always got your words with me, "no matter what you are deciding for your life, daddy always will support you". thanks, pa...

Mummy,

I know, its hard to give the birth to me, although, I might be the lightest among all my brothers, but it still hurts, I know...and last time, after the accident which make my head with some bad injuries, some family members said that I might not be a 'smart' guy when I grew up...but you never listen to them and still raised me like a precious...and I am proud of you, I grew up and be a big guy with some good results in school, I do not disappoint you overall...I cried badly thinking about it, even now writing it...
I cannot express anything out...I just love you mom... I really do...

and now...I know...how important, my baby, and my family is to me, they are my support, my root, my everything, and simply...they are my life...thanks~

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-Ivan Joachim