Its Friday...

Last night I fall asleep on the couch, it was around 2 something in the morning.

After I wake up, it was only her and the time is already 5.

She did not even talk to me or say anything to me, I started coughing due to the temperature,

went up to room and was about to sleep, her phone beeps...

I look at it, it was from someone I knew, it was 530 then.

She refuse to show me what's the contain but I spotted something different, the wallpaper had

change, it was no more me and her, it was her and him...

For the whole night, I sat up, crying, coughing and thinking for she knows curiosity kills me,

I can't sleep, can't rest nor even stop thinking for a while, until the morning come...

I dream...and it was a nightmare, a nightmare that for my whole life seem to be destroyed...

I dreamed of something that I never ever expected to happen...

I hope...somehow I could undo this, somehow I could save myself...

Or else, I'll be forever living in fear...

Fearing of losing you...

To all...

To all my people out there...

Read and Realize...

Wake Up and Think!


Yes...One live, Live it! Don't F*ck it...

People jumping from rooftops, drinking Clorax, cutting self and so much more, what dumb ass you guys are, think yourself in DEEP SHIT?! Think again, there are billions of other people in this world, who at the same time, facing the same SHIT, but still, they put their heads up and goes on...

We'll can do the same thing

Out of 100-200 billions of sperm produce by our dads respectfully, :)

We are the one which gets through, the strong swimmer!

Researcher mention that, for a sperm to get to the egg, its like a man swimming across the South China Sea, but not in water, its in honey-liquid form *imagine*

Appreciate your life

Do what you wanna do right away...

Love whom you wanna Love at this very second...

Think and miss those you had longed for...

Pray and repent before everything is too late...

DO NOT regret...NEVER...

All my people out there...appreciate your life

You would only had it ONCE...

Belly Dance

Bebe went to belly dance yesterday, due to nothing to do at home, I just went with her...

This is what I learned when I am there... captured a few photos...

This is my Bebe~

Some random girl with a mole
in between her bottom lips

Aunty with Jeans went to belly dance

Girls doing belly dance, yea... indeed you can see shaking or vibrating part *wink*

But this is the funny part it's not the aunty with the jeans... Just check out the video, I laugh my brain out...seriously




Yea yea, I did say, "SOOooO cute in that video" -_-"

Anyhow, I do know her, her brother to be exact, and if I am not mistaken, she already get married to a rich guy, her husband not even bad looking at all and the most important part, her husband's ride = BMW (Big Malaysian Women) WooOOoW~

So GIRLS out there, stop complaining about how fat you are and how bad you wanna get on diet,
stop saying it... overall, there is still someone bigger than you guys which still live happily!

Dead...so dead...

My blog...its so dead...so dead...




Amen...

Tagged, tagged and tagged...fuhh~

Name 20 people randomly.At the end of the survey, choose 5 people to do the survey.Don't read the questions, but name the 20 people first.

1. Cath
2. Terry
3. Alvin
4. Aaron
5. Suleen
6. Ivanna
7. Ellane
8. Godric
9. Gwenda
10. Elisha
11. Leo
12. Terrence
13. Tania
14. Carolyn
15. Tony
16. Jude
17. *long legged hair girl at tHe Spring*
18. Jeremiah (UK)
19. Jeremiah (Msia)
20. Adrian

1.) How did you meet number 18?
- Jeremiah (UK): Through the girlfriend

2.) What will you do if you have not met number 17?
- *...* I never know girl can get that much hair (boots with the fur)

3.) What if number 9 and 20 dated?
- Gwenda and Adrian? woW~ It would turn out to be explosion

4.) What if number 5 and 10 dated?
- Suleen and Elisha?: WooShh! That's what we call Msia, multiculture!

5.) Describe number 1
- Cath: There is no word for her... *wink*

6.) Do you think number 8 is attractive?
- Godric: My gosh, u should see the piture of him that I took, that's way too HOT!

7.) Describe number 7
- Ellane: poor thing

8.) Do you know any family members of 12?
- Terrence: yes, quite well as well

9.) What language does number 15 speak?
- Tony: English, Chinese and Malay

10.) Who is number 9 hanging out with?
- Gwenda, the boyfriend?

11.) How old is number 16?
- Jude: Same age

12.) When was the last time you spoke to number 13?
- Tania: outside her house doing the "AaaaAaaaaAAaa~"

13.) Who's number 2 favorite singer/band?
- Terry: All the heavy stuff, he listens to

14.) Have you ever dated number 4?
- Aaron...Hahah

15.) Would you ever date number 19?
- Miah: For football maybe

16.) Is number 3 single?
- Can try to ask Suleen...

17.) What is number 10 last name?
- Sorry to say, I really do not know

18.) Would you ever be in a relationship with number 11?
- Leo...I am Straight!

19.) What is the school of number 13?
- Tania: Swinburne

20.) Where does number 6 stay?
- Ivanna: aa....

I tag:
Alvin
ivanna
suleen
Elisha
Jia Zhen

Tv...its not only about entertainment

Dear all...

I might did not blog for long, for I run out of idea what to write, but after I read one of my long ex classmate's comment, something pop up in my mind to write what I am always good at... here goes, the second one, after Long Hard road Into Hell, sit tight, do not look back, stare at your monitor and be prepared for the thrill...

For a very brief introduction, TV, a short form for television had been invented since 1927, that's really long long time ago, by Philo Farnsworth, (some smart as* guy), it was black and white then...

Now, average of more than 90% of houses, have their own television set, from some 14" inches monitor to 40" LCD. It is all available in market nowadays, expensive, cheap, loan, credit card...in all sorts of way, public can get hold of one of it...

But let me tell you something that, you might do not want to know, really, so when there is still time, there is still a chance, you might have a TV inside your bedroom, looking at it right now...you can close this blog and go do something else, I do not advice the weak hearted reader to continue reading...



So, you insist wanna go on, well...let's go on...



I do have one at home as well, not really big, it is just some that average family could afford it, I was watching some movie at that particular time, since I am on holiday and nothing that I really can do. Night is still pretty young, eye is still not that heavy and body still contains some energy enough for few more hours.

I can't really remember what movie I was watching at that time, it was some action stuff if I am not mistaken, I was 'attached' on the screen, sitting there satisfying myself with some chips and coke, what a life...I can really chill when I just sit there with some junk food and coke, and smoke definitely, that would be it, infinite joy.

When the movie is almost going to end, I remember I was slowly falling asleep, and which earlier on, my younger brother who is watching with me, had gone to bed, left me alone sitting there, watching the action pack.
I might can finish the movie, but I did not, my eye somehow could not stand it anymore, so I decided to turn off the TV and hit my bed.

Here it all starts,

When I turn the TV off, and even I switch off the power supply making sure that everything is really dead, I walked to my bedroom whereby, I hear the TV is switch on again, no lies, it switch on by itself, I shall have no explanation for it, but just assuming that it might be me myself which is to tired until my own eye play trick on myself. So I walked back to the TV and switch it off again, and when I turn to the power supply, it is still off... second assumption, it is still me myself.

Having no second thoughts, I walked to my bedroom again, yes reader, the TV is on again...third assumption, there is definitely something very wrong, I tilted my head and looked at the TV, this time, no more action pack, it is something else, it was...

A woman...

age around 60-70 plus, wrinkles all over the face, Grey whitish hair, sad expression, very very sad...it is still fine until...

She made an eye contact with me, eye to eye and gave me a smile...

The next moment that I opened my eye, I am sitting on the couch with the TV showing some colorful lines showing that no more pro grammes is going on, I fall asleep...I smile to myself and think, what a fool I had been...

I switch off the TV, and the power supply and walked to my bedroom still thinking that, what a fool i had been...and then...

the TV switch 'itself' on again...

Not a TV fans
-Ivern Joaquin-

Long hard road INTO hell

I took this shot, nearly to midnight, nothing special about the photo, and nothing scary as well, but the place, it is a 'killer' instead. And goosebumps on me when i stop and took this photo.

It is situated some where near Bau, my hometown, this road already been there for such a long time, longer then I ever know, just that, it had been refined and repaired. But right after the road was build, there is so many things happening on that particular road, let me recall...

Incident No.1

-It happened way long before I was born. A girl, got killed on this road, that is not the shocking part, the shocking part is...how she got killed. She was on her way down to Kuching by bus, and on this road, with unknown reasons, she put her head out to look at something, but neither she knew that, there was another bus coming up front, since the road is pretty narrow that time, the other bus eventually, ripped her head off... this is not a fiction story. It was on paper for weeks...


Incident No.2 (related to no. 1)

- Ever since the incident of the girl being killed, every passenger which pass the road, saw some one, sitting on the tree up high, and its without head, the old road is very very near to a jungle with trees of hundreds years old which had been cleared. This incident is not supported by evidence.


Incident No. 3

- One very early morning on the year 2005-06. An old lady taking an early walk some where lower part of the newly build road (that time). She was crossing the road to get to the other side, she crossed it, she was walking at the very very side of the road, which mean, she cannot being hit by any car that is passing by. But...one car, drove by some drunker come from behind somehow knocked her, and kill her instantly...One of her eyes, flew off and never being found ever since. Not even until today. She died in tragic.


Incident No. 4 (related to No. 3)

-Driver which drove pass the road, sometimes, early in the morning or very late at night, somehow, saw a figure of an old lady squashing down on the middle of the road and showing an action which seem like looking for something...She still can be seen until today, although I never saw it.


Incident No.5

- Latest one, of the road killing, a whole family of five in a car being hit from the side by incoming car. One teen inside the car, flew off from the side door and hits down the road 10 meters away from the car. Now imagine the impact. Weird thing, the car did not see any car coming from the other side which is very impossible because it happened at night fall time, no matter how dim is your car's head light, you still can see because there used to be pitch black.


Rumors say that, the road is thirsty for blood, each year, a life must being sacrifice on that particular road to satisfied 'him', who will be the next? Driver out there, please, drive safe...especially when you are coming here...



Now, look properly again into the picture (the last one)...nothing? There is nothing...But, you can feel the 'presence'...you see nothing, but they saw you...

Having lotsa goosebumps
-Ivern Joaquin-

Happy birthday~

First, here comes the normal type of blog~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Jia Zhen, one year older already...
from this day onwards, life full with rocks waiting for you in the future, things going to be harder for you, real hard~ but no worries, you still got your family members...friends...and a lot more to back you up and push you forward to see you excel in you on life. I know, I know, I sound like some old guy nagging to the kids or whatever, I am OLDER ma~ ok, ok...no craps, this is the pictures and a real surprise.

Yesh, the candid shot of the birthday girl


Me, the birthday girl and MY girl
(yes, the surprise is, I AM BALD!)

Saying hapie Hepii Birthday!
-Ivern Joaquin-

Three Kingdom!!!

Latest movie that I just went to watch the other day! I am going to write out the preview, cause I am a big fan of the three kingdoms!

Here we go...



The movie starring Andy Lao as Zhao Zilong, the main character in the movie, Sammo Hung as Ping Ann the sworn brother of Zilong also as the movie's action director and Maggie Q as Cao Ying, Cao Cao's granddaughter which is the bad guy in the movie.

Story Line

Movie started with the birth of the warrior of the Shu's kingdom, Zhao Zilong.
He fought countless battles for his king, Liu Bei alongside with the King sworn brothers, Guan Yu and Zhang Fei.

Eversince he bought back the prince from being killed by the army of the other kingdom, he had been famous among his villagers and the king put 110% trustworthy onto him.

Fighting endless battles, he finally earned his high rank in the kingdom, as the 5 Greatest warriors which consists of Guan Yu, Zhang Fei, Huang and Wu.

He fought with Cao Ying at the climax's of the movie, he kill 4 sons of one of Cao Ying's general but leads the whole troop into the face of death thanks to someone who betray the family.

Endless army of Cao Ying against Zilong standing alone. He fight the battle himself at the end. Showing him with his horse ragging towards Cao Ying's troop is the full stop of the movie.

Pros

-Movie with great action with lines of great actors such as Andy Lau, Sammo Hung and Maggie Q.

-Lots of action, chopping off humans head, poking a sword into a soldier's stomach, blood shedding everywhere!

-Movie base on history of the three kingdom, the most interesting history of all time. Great warriors like Guan Yu, Zhang Fei, Liu Bei etc came to LIFE!

-For die hard fans of the game, dynasty warriors, you would probably love this movie a lot, especially when you can see the character you love inside the game came in a form of real guy!

But then...

Cons

-Movie consists too much fake characters, there is no such character in the real history name Cao Ying (Cao Cao's granddaughter), she does not even exists! Whereby in the movie, she's the center of attention in the end!

-Explosives in the movie does not make any sense, At 200 AD, people already start producing explosives?

-Zilong, the great warrior, die because of old age, around 70-75 (as written down) NOT BECAUSE OF KILLED IN A BATTLE. His last fought battle in the killing of the the four sons and the father! Whereby in the movie the father (general of Cao Ying) died because of the explosion.

-The real fact, Zilong never lose even one battle! In the movie, he lost his final battle!

-The costume inside the movie, soldiers look more like Japanese soldiers compare to Chinese, what's the director comment? "Japanese soldiers being influence by Chinese's soldiers.

Pictures.

Liu Bei
(King of Shu-Great leader)

Guan Yu
(Sworn Brother of Liu Bei-great warrior and fighter)



Zhang Fei
(Also the sworn brother of Liu Bei-Hot tempered man)



Zhao Zilong
(the main character in the movie play by Andy Lau)



Cao Cao
(King of the Wei)


Zhuge Liang
(Not forgetting Liu Bei's prime minister, the most intelligent guy)

If I die tonight...

What if I die tonight...? Would anyone cry for me? Would anyone undress me, give me a bath and put suit on me? Would anyone pay a last visit for me? Would anyone come to my funeral and bid me goodbye for the last time? Would anyone come to attend my funeral mass and give their speech for me? Would anyone come and gives me flowers? Would anyone come and comfort my parents saying that everything is going to be alright? Would all of my family members come back from everywhere to take a final look at my face? Would you...be there?

What if I die tonight...? Would I cry myself? Would I see myself lying in the coffin made of wood and I cannot do a thing? Would I see people around me and they are deaf towards my words? Would I be reaching some places which I am not familiar with? Would I be meeting those whom had passed away? Would I be guarded for judgment? Would I be sentence for punishment? Would I...be sent to Hell?

What if I die tonight...? Who would be keeping my beloved computer? Would it be sold? Would it be re-formatted and all my stupid porns and pictures be deleted? How bout my baby My vi? Would mummy learn how to drive and drive it to work? What would happen to my sneakers? Who would wear the big size of 10/11? How bout my football jerseys and football shoes? Would it be ended up inside the rubbish bin cause no one in my family actually like football? How bout my shirts? Jeans? Would it be donated to the church? Would my brothers wear it? How bout all my favorite boxers? Nobody in my family wear boxer either? Were could it be ended up at? How bout all my other stuff?

What if I die tonight...? Would she cry for me? How long? How bad? After long, how would she be? Would she cry in the middle of the night and say she miss me? Would she ever go and watch people play football and grumble at the side? Would she request for all my attires and shoes to bring back to her own room and recall back all the time she saw me wearing all those? Would she be holding hand with another guy's hand walking into McD to order Sundae? Would I see that, and keep the jealousy only for myself? Would she keep all the pictures of us for a while and throw it away when the new boyfriend requested it to be burn, throw or destroy? Would she even remember the past memories of us? Years after my death, would she have a family with a guy that she love the most and raise a family with sons by the name of Sean, Ian, Ivan...and with family of the father's name added with a Jr at the back? Would she still be hanging out with all my buddies? Would she recall the bad times of her with me when she saw the mahjong's tiles, or snooker-Q? Would she remember me when she hear Wu Bai's song inside the new boyfriend's car? Would she remember the time if she visited Pop Wave again and sing all those songs which I ever sang before? Would she remember all those? Will she visit Permai again with the new boyfriend with her friends and bury the new guy as the same as she ever did to me? Would she forgets me?

What if I die tonight...?

There would be thousands of question I could ask if there's space...but shall be none of the question be answered, shall I hear nothing after the be going, shall I see nothing after the goodbye unsaid, I shall know exactly nothing...

In case of all those, people out there, please only bid goodbye at my grave, crave my smile not tears in your mind, forget the past, keep the sweets, live on, I am not your life, you shall go on without me by your side, I shall see you again somewhere else when its time...if only I die tonight...

People out there, live everyday like it is your last, do not do tomorrow what you can do today, do not live for regrets in the future when you can solve today, live your life to the fullest, keep yourselves happy, let the people around you brings only smile onto your face...cause, nobody knows, when they are bidding the final goodbyes...

Bidding everday
-Ivern Joaquin-

Dedicated to whom which I never ever wanted to dedicated this to...

Confusing? It does sound a bit confusing to me, cause me myself do not even know what the hell am I talking about. But definately, I still know to whom this blog I am writing to.

As it says, dedicated to someone which I never ever wanted to...

"Puuuiii!!!", to whom which is in my head right now, I know YOU did exactly nothing wrong to me, but YOU did semething more serious then you ever realise.

Since the first date going with HER, I already heard about YOU. Its more then half year have passes, but yet, YOUR name still going in and around me, like FLIES around CORPSE.

"IT IS FU*KING BOTHERING!"

I wanted YOU, some how to get the fu*k outta my life, but I realise it cannot be done, just like how we cannot forget how PARAMESWARA found Malacca.

GREAT~

Malacca...heard YOU are flying there. How I wish YOU were with the same plane with some stupid terrorist which is trying to fly the plane with some 30 mins manual book bought from Sunday Market. I'll be as glad as Bush when he just bomb Iraq.

I just wish that YOU drop dead, I sound mean, yes I do, yes I do...I sound bad and ridiculous, yes I am but c'mon, as if readers never have this kinda hatred before which you just wish someone to drop dead right in front of you or in some kinda newpaper you read early in the morning, well, I mean someone other then your family member that you really hate.

Gosh, I sound emotional inside here, with neither one point why am I saying all this...I did realise something, everyone who read this, happens to know HIM and ME, really well, I mean...please raise your guns and shot HIM dead, YOU'll be heavily rewarded...(as if you guys would)...

Please, please say no more of HIM or the rest, let the past, remain in the past, let history be history, let Parameswara have a nice sleep in his grave. I shall hear no more from anybody, anywhere or anyhow about HIM, because, simply say, I GIVE A FU*K ABOUT MYSELF! but not a FU*K about HIM, so, FU*K YOURself up...

-reading newpaper everyday hoping
a fu*kin plane would crash carrying YOU-
Ivern Joaquin...

Suck Into The GraveOfLove

Fallen deep deep down inside,

Suck hard stick hard...

I thought I never could ever be,

Being strike hard by the Cupid's arrow,

I just being strike one...

Its hard, its sharp, its beautifool,

to be fooled by the beauty of it,

I ain't saying it is painful,

But it is in another angle,

I miss everything that we had done,

But yet I felt so ridiculous having to read what you wrote,

For someone which is not me...

The hatred build so strongly within myself...

I wish I could somehow unborn him...

Its just because,

I am so deeply suck into the GraveOfLove...with u (meow meow~)

-Kim-

The Beginning...for the year 08

Before anything, I wanted to apologize for all those keep coming in, and see nothing inside here...I am really really sorry for all those, especially the part that I did not update my blog...

I am actually, waiting for my new phone, so that I can take a lot of pictures to be posted up inside here, but the thing is, it seems to be, TOMORROW NEVER COME.

But still, for now, I insist that I wanted to update, so for the new year, I just wanted to do one thing, and only one thing for now,

Something for my baby...

Its a new year,
A new fresh start of everything,
A new phrase, a new vows, a new motive of life,
A new way of thoughts, style and fate,
So many things is going to be change...

So many new things will come,
So many obstacle will appear,
So many hard time will we face,
So many new things we'll have to explore,

But there is going to be only one thing,
Which will remain old,
Remain to be the same way it used to be,
Like from the very first day,

It never change,
It never will...
It never will fade, blown away or whatever,
It is still the same old one like the first time,
The first time of you...and me...
Become Us...

Its yours...my...
Love...

Like how we start from the very beginning my baby...

-For all my men out there, have a great new year onwards, our brotherhood still maintain the same old great way, which I hope it can last for years to come...-

-For my family, thanks for the hospitality all these years, I could never pay back for all those that I owned you guys, I only can send up my prayers...hoping that He could repay you all for me, I love u all!-

-For my haters, backstabber, gossipers and all those whom wish I just die, I appreciate all those that you guys had done in the previous year(s), I might not be like what I am now without those hates in you guys. I believe, with those hates, I manage to be the great me, now, on this present day. Still, thank you...-

-For those...never mind, for all those which is reading and not classified in any of the class as above, I still wanted to thank you guys, first, is because of the visit in this website...and still, want to wish you all, have a great year onwards!-

Signing out for NEW YEAR!!!
-Ivern Joaquin-