I wanna treasure you...

The time now is, 5.51am in the morning, it was raining outside, it was cold, chilling and just nice to lie your head on your pillow and get some good sleep. just to describe how the situation is like right now.

But that is not the point, I was up doing my revision earlier on. Well, I am having my final exam right now. I gotta so some revision, I do not want to fail and waste my beloved father's money...he work hard and earned that money like he never does, and he did it for the family. Well, well...let me turned myself back first.

I stop my revision half way, I decided to take a break, a sip of my tea and clear my mind for a while, so I click on some on the blogs...I ended up here...

http://www.xanga.com/jiggleyCherrie

I read things inside, well, to my worst disappointment of the day, I read of something which make me feel bad, I would not want to talk about this. I know I should not, but well...I am still human...I am still being made by flesh, blood, and...feelings as well...I am jealous, like how much you do not like to talk about my ex-es, i do not like it the same way you do baby. I apologize that...

And what comes to worst, my mood of revising all the stuff that I missed, I threw away all my books and silently cried, I do not know why, I just do not like the read some phrase saying, "I miss you...babe" while I know it is not me...

It is complicated, I understand readers, but please keep on going, my words might going to change your way of thinking after this....

My whole mood crash yet I do not want to sms or call her and talk about it, cause I know, things would not work that way. So I just keep things to myself and be quiet...

Well, I did not sleep then, I keep on memorizing stuff that I read moments before that...I just could not sleep...I told myself, "its useless to stay like this" so I sat up and click on my mouse, the PPstream icon, I clicked on it, and I plan to watch some movies online until then.

I view on some movies on the list...and then, this movie came in, "Click" by Adam Sandler, I hope I got his name correct. well, my girl talks about this movie few days back, but I never really pay attention on it, since I cannot watch the movie with her until then. but now, it came out in the list, and it seems like, it is more interesting than other movie, so I click on it, wait for a few seconds and pop, the movie is ready to watch. So, i watch it, for readers which whom have not watch it, go and watch it, get some dvds or whatever, just go and get it.

I cannot really say or summarize the all movie out, but out of 10 stars, I gave it 9, well, not really much movie that gave tears on my eyes duh~

So, while watching the movie especially, when Michael Newman (Adam Sandler) and his wife (Kate B.) came on the husband and wife scene, my darling keeps on appearing in my mind...and its really really much, it just, KaBoom!!! hit me hard!!!

after finish watching the movie, I just completely have one kinda, new thinking going on in my mind. and the good part about it, it is a Positive kinda!!!

Here it goes, I wanna tell my dearest, beloved darling that, I love her, no matter what and no matter how, how stormy is the situation that we must go through in the future, I do not f**king care...I just do not care, what I care is, I just wanna be with you, until the end of time, until your breast drag the floor, your vagina gone loose, or whatever heck...I just do not care...all I want is your heart which beats every single moment and mind which every single second is thinking about me, that's all I need! I want to be with you every single second which I can for you, to hear your heart beat near to mine, to have your breast rest on my chest, I do not mean to sound lust...I just wanna show how much I love my baby. I just cannot imagine, just cannot think, what if one day, she left me, and gone with another guy (a scene in the movie whereby, the wife left Adam Sandler). I would do the same thing as he did in the movie, kick him in the groins...I would definitely do that...but well, that would not happen, cause I ain't leaving her nor making her to leave me...No, no...no...

like what I had said earlier on tonight baby...

Until Death do Us apart...

I wanna treasure you like I never treasure anyone before...I wanna hug you tight whenever I can, I wanna kiss your sweet reddish lips whenever I am around...and my love for u, its like a tree...it grows every single second...

besides that, I wanna thanks my family, especially my father and mother,

Pa, (although he might not be reading this)

I know I had not being a good son of yours, I might only know how to spend your hard earned money and not appreciating it...but in my heart, I always got you as my support, mentally and physically...and you are the best I got, whenever I am down, I always got your words with me, "no matter what you are deciding for your life, daddy always will support you". thanks, pa...

Mummy,

I know, its hard to give the birth to me, although, I might be the lightest among all my brothers, but it still hurts, I know...and last time, after the accident which make my head with some bad injuries, some family members said that I might not be a 'smart' guy when I grew up...but you never listen to them and still raised me like a precious...and I am proud of you, I grew up and be a big guy with some good results in school, I do not disappoint you overall...I cried badly thinking about it, even now writing it...
I cannot express anything out...I just love you mom... I really do...

and now...I know...how important, my baby, and my family is to me, they are my support, my root, my everything, and simply...they are my life...thanks~

Showing love
-Ivan Joachim

Made for her, only Her...

The sweetest murderer which took away my life,
The most loving stealer which stole my heart,

Shall not, I wanted this sweet and sour time to end,
Because I wanted you to be the marking of the end of my relationship,
The marking of the beginning of the end,
I might be the one which not understand you much,
Might be sensitive when needed not,
Might be fool in using words and expressing myself,

Because I am too stupid,
Idiot, fool...cause I had been blinded of you,
I shall not know what is my priority in life,
I shall not make a list of what to wish,
Cause you and your name, crowned the place, and eternally will,

If I could, dig out my heart and show you,
To prove that, you are the one causes it to beats every second,
To show that, without you, I can't even breathe a gasp of air,
Can't even eat a piece of food, not even a droplet of water,

Although in a very short time, you had conquer my all,
Every inch of this heart, every line of my vines,
My all is your all...loose you, just simply means,
THE END...of everything.

Babe~ I apologize on what I had done...
Apologize on what I had said,
Apologize on every single sins I had committed,
Every pain that I had cut...

I really do not mean it...I am sorry, but...

I LOVE YOU

I love my NAME!!!

Jo·a·chim /ˈyoʊɑxɪm, yoʊˈɑ-/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[ho-ah-khim, hoh-ah-]

That is how my name should be pronounce, in proper written, its HOAKIM...

Well, it is cool rite? hahaha, before I found out that my name is unique, first, I blame my parent for naming me, with such a weird name, why just do not name me with some simply yet easy to pronounce name, such as, Aaron (man, no offense!), John (daddy's name, wahaha) Robert? or David? There is so much more name that they can name after their new born eldest son...

I just do not understand that much then, until...

I visited one church at Bukit Mertajam, Pulau Pinang, last year, it was a church built on a small hill, a small church but claim by its committee that, it is a church which full of blessing and bliss. People always get cured of sickness, disease or whatever, when they pray very hard there. And what is more interesting, when it came to St. XXX Day, people would came here, all around the nation, to gather here, just to light a candle and place it all over the place and on night time, the whole hill, fulfilled with candle lights! which is definitely, an image which you could never forget!

Back to the topic, when I walk around in the church, I found out my name, belong to a Saint, yes, St. Joachim. Father of our Virgin Mother Mary... I was like, so shock and could not say anything until then, then...I was very proud of my name... well, a name which belong to such important person...who is not proud of it right?

Other than this, when I went online to browse around, I also found out that my name also belong to Joseph Joachim, a very famous and popular, Hungarian, music composer and producer. Woah~ seem like this name, Joachim, ain't just a simple name...

Than, I start to telling people around about my name, how to pronounce it, the history of the name, and not many people can have this kinda unique name!

Well...do you like your name my dear readers?

(Problem uploading pics, maybe few more days after this, sorry!)

In Memory of Father Joachim Phang (the one who baptized me)
-Ivan Joachim-

Tagged By My Babe~

LIST OUT THE TOP 5 PRESENT YOU WISH FOR
:: 1. More time with her
:: 2. New handphone
:: 3. More money
:: 4. IPod
:: 5. A new wallet?

THE PERSON WHO TAGG-ED YOU IS
:: My Babe, Cathelene Chong

YOUR 5 IMPRESSIONS OF HER
:: 1. Perfect
:: 2. Beautiful
:: 3. Sexy
:: 4. Hot
:: 5. Tall enough for me!!!

MOST MEMORABLE THINGS SHE HAS DONE FOR YOU
:: Giving me, her everything! well~ its really everything

THE MOST MEMORABLE WORDS SHE HAS SAID TO YOU
:: "yes" when she agreed to be mine, =P

IF SHE BECOMES YOUR LOVER , YOU WILL
:: she is my lover!

IF SHE BECOMES YOUR LOVER , THEY HAVE TO IMPROVE ON
:: who is they? they is who?

IF SHE BECOMES YOUR ENERMY , YOU WILL
:: I never wanted to...

IF SHE BECOMES YOUR ENERMY , THE REASON WILL BE
:: I hurt her badly, or the other way round, Im just saying, cause it will never happen!

PASS THIS QUIZ TO 1O PEOPLE THAT YOUS WISH TO KNOW HOW THEY FEEL ABOUT YOU
1. Cathelene back?
2. Apui (Alvin Yap)
3. Suleen
4. Eli Shares~
5. Doreen
6. Vincent
7. Cherling
8. Chai Loon (although u dun blog here!)
9 GiaChery
10. Henry

( *if only all of the 10 is reading this* )

1. WHO IS NO.7 HAVING RELATIONSHIP WITH ?
:: Melvin, I think this is how to spell his name

2. WHO IS NO.9 HAVING RELATIONSHIP WITH ?
:: I miss contact with him, for some a time, but I know he had a new one! woo~ where to go man!

3. IF NO.9 nd NO10 ARE TOGETHER , WILL IT BE A GOOD THING ?
:: Gay?! I do not know duh~

4. WHAT ABOUT NO1 nd NO5 ?
:: they are in relationship, sista ma~

5. WHAT IS NO3 STUDYING ?
:: Foundation in Business

6. WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOUS CHATT-ED WITH NO6 ?
:: never...I just stare him...hahah

7. DOES NO4 WORK ?
:: Nope

8. DOES NO8 HAVE ANY COUSIN IN HER OWN SCHOOL ?
:: I do not think so

9. WILL YOU WOO NO8 ?
:: No! sorry, im on someone badly already

10. HOW BOUT NO5 ?
:: Hell no!

11. DOES NO2 HAVE ANY SIBLINGS ?
:: one elder bro n a sister

12. HOW DID YOU GET TO KNOW NO3 AND NO4 ?
:: in SwinBurne

13. WHERE DOES NO1 LIVE AT ?
:: Jln Song, yeah, I hope I can live nearer as well

14. HOW YOUS GET TO KNOW NO.2 ?
:: SwinBurne as well

15. IS NO5 SEXIEST PERSON IN THE WORLD ?
:: Sori doreen, but I gotta say...my Babe is the sexiest

Suicide is Painless...

STRESS is 'killing' a lot of people nowadays, whom just cannot cope up with their stress, cannot find a way to relieve it, for sure...they are going to use the alternative way...

Definitely, my subject today is pointing to TEENAGERS. Somehow there is a lot of teenagers nowadays...just cannot cope up with their stress.

Stress from FAMILY, STUDY, FRIENDS and so on... there is a lot of thing running wild in their mind, making them to jump into making such decision...


MARILYN MANSON
SUICIDE IS PAINLESS (LYRICS)

"Suicide Is Painless"

Through early morning fog I see
Visions of the things to be
The pains that are withheld for me
I realize and I can see...

That suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
And I can take or leave it if I please

The game of life is hard to play
I'm gonna lose it anyway
The losing card I'll someday lay
So this is all I have to say

Suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
And I can take or leave it if I please

The sword of time will pierce our skins
It doesn't hurt when it begins
But as it works its way on in
The pain grows stronger...watch it grin, but...

Suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
And I can take or leave it if I please

A brave man once requested me
To answer questions that are key
Is it to be or not to be
And I replied 'oh why ask me?'

And suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
And I can take or leave it if I please

...and you can do the same thing if you please

You see...some more with this kinda, song...no support from people around you...you are on your own, no wonder, many teenager die this way, but to all this kinda people out there, do you think, it is worth it to get rid of your own life?

Okay, do not consider about your own life, but at least that you think about people around you? your parent? your favorite uncle or auntie? or your loved one?

Message to all people put there! think twice before you make any decision...it is not only you, facing the world, having all odds going against you, there is people worse than you are...

so think...before you...

Marilyn Manson Fan:
Ivan Joachim

Feeling of Deeply Fallen

Do you guys know how actually, falling in love feels? Alright, many of you might know, but let me ask again, you know how it feels to DEEPLY fallen in LOVE?

OooOOuuuUUuu~

Believe me, no body would hear you scream if you were that deep.

I am deeper than that!

I realize about it, just about an hour ago. What incident? Never mind, let me keep it for myself, sorry viewers, sometimes, life should contains its' secret.

But why I know...cause, I feel so, I do not know why, yet I cannot explain the reason. I just so deeply, madly, in love with her. Cannot even lose the image of her, even within one second. yet, I do not want to lose the image of her face in my head, not even for one moment.

She is just like my breath...try holding your breath for one minute...

1...2...3...4...5...

6...7...8...9...10...

I know...you cannot right? I understand, well, maybe yes, for some, one minute, than try to beat the world record of 8 minutes plus, hold for 10 minutes than. I bet you cannot...well, that is how I can describe her, she is like that to me, I cannot even lose her even in a very short period...

She told me something just now...I do not know what to do, right at that moment, but...I just out of my mind...and at that very moment, I really realize that, I cannot breathe, eat, drink, sleep not even living my up my life like what I used to be...IF LIVING IS WITHOUT HER...

YES!!! she is that important to me...if I could, I would say, she is much more important that that...now, breathe might be one example to describe...

I'll get another... SOUL, can human live without soul? When we were created at the very first moment, of daddy's worm and mummy's egg... we accept our very first PRESENT from GOD, our soul!

and I believe that, our life had being destined at that moment, what will we live as, how do we look like, how is the attitude that we could have when we grow up and what or how would we ended up like, and who will be the companion for life...

that is why, I understand why is it call soul mate.

and now, I found mine, my soul mate~

Found soul mate...
-Ivan Joachim-

Frustrated Nights...

It had been so many nights since I stay awake, including tonight, I just cannot sleep, I seriously, do not know why...

leaving me with this

-eye of the sleepless night-

To be really really honest, it is damn tiring, you have no attention at all, when you are having class, you simply cannot understand what the heck the lecturer is talking about, you just cannot catch the point, second, you do not have the mood to do anything, you just felt like, you wanna leave everything down and rest, but the thing is like, you just cannot sleep, that is what so fuck up about it...

But I found out something...

Whenever I am around here...I can rest completely with nothing as burden inside my head or my shoulder, I just felt that, nothing shall bother me...I swear, I would not...regret if I die lying beside her, while I am asleep...

She is just like my...comforter...I feel comfortable, whenever, I am around her, (yah rite! what a good reason to sleep in class...LoL)

tonight is another sleepless night like I mention just now, I try to sleep, but I just cannot stop my brain from keep on working...

my modem cannot work just now, damn boring, sit, watch some video that I last time downloaded, sms with my babe, and than, until I ask her to sleep... saying, I would sleep together with her, but in the end, I turn on my light and stay... sorry for lying, but I do not really mean it, I want to sleep...but I cant... so I guess, I am trying to say, I wanna sleep with you... :P

As I stay awake late at night,

I imagine your body lie on my bed,
When I lie down to hug it,
You were not there, no nowhere to be found,
Guess, I use to much of my imagination,

I like to see you asleep,
Although you might just conquer the whole bed,
But I do not mind at all,
Sacrifice anything here, to satisfied everything there

When I stay up late at night,
I wonder a lot of thing inside my mind,
I have millions of thoughts,
And each and every of those,
Contains your name and your face,

Because of you, I exist,
Because of you, I stay alive, breathing,
Because of you, I live another day to love,
Because of you, I put down my pride,
Because of you, I put aside myself,
and put you as my priority...

Because I know...I'll never be perfect anymore
and thinking about it...if life without you
as I stay awake at night...

I need her more than anyone does
-Ivan Joachim-

Making Love...

-Makin' Love-

Well, common phrase, a very, very common phrase in our modern world nowadays, educated or not a person is, he or she still know how to make love with the partner, it is not something that, you need special education to understand, no proper training to let you know how to do the move...but it is still, something which is so special. But in our modern world nowadays, people just make love without knowing proper things behind it, something like the benefits? The real move? The respect of partners when making love...and so much more...people nowadays just make love to satisfied their needs...without caring much the beauty of making love...

The other day, I was surfing on the net like usual, looking some facts, some information, nothing much, just spending some dull time on the net, than I came across, something entitle this:

TEN REASONS TO MAKE LOVE

this sure is a title which attract almost everyman to click on it, and read the articles, I bet! well, consider yourself lucky mate, cause, I am going to re-write what I read the other day...enjoy!

1. Exercise. "Sexual activity is a form of physical exercise," according to Dr. Michael Cirigliano of the University of Pennsylvania School of Medicine. Sure it is a form of exercise, you move each and every part of your body when you are making love...this make me think of swimming duh, just the difference is...swimming=cold, making love=hot and steamy! Making love three times a week burns around 7,500 calories in a year, for the kiss part...if included...you are working out on your own bed, this does sound good doesn't it? and this equivalent of jogging 75 miles, which by this miles, you would never walk by foot, for the whole year, trust me...
   
2. Heavy Breathing. A night of love can raise the amount of oxygen in cells, helping to keep organs and tissues functioning at their peak. Which is another benefit which you gain from exercising....
3. Strong Bones and Muscles. "Any kind of physical exercise is going to increase testosterone," states Dr. Karen Donahey, director of the Sex and Marital Therapy Program at Chicago's Northwestern University Medical Center. Testosterone is believed to help keep men's bones and muscles strong. Still, it is another benefits that you gain from working out in gym, but you must know, in gym, you saw guys...muscular guys~ but if making love...
   
4. Lowered Cholesterol. Making love regularly can lower levels of the body's total cholesterol slightly, while positively changing the ratio of good-to-bad cholesterol. Which simply means that, when you reach the age of 65 or 70...you would not suffer any strokes causing death when the past last 10 years, you had kept on wrecking your bed.
   
5. Pain Relief. Sex can lower levels of "arthritic pain, whiplash pain and headache pain," according to Dr. Beverly Whipple, president-elect of the American Association of Sex Educators, Counselors and Therapists. Hormones that are released during sexual excitement and orgasm can elevate pain thresholds. So, next time, when your wife or partner says, "not tonight dear, I had headache" tell him or her this...so, there is no other reasons not to make love!
   
6. DHEA -- Without Supplements. DHEA (dehydroepiandrosterone), a popular supplemental hormone, is released naturally during lovemaking. "Just before orgasm and ejaculation," Crenshaw says, "DHEA spikes to levels three to five times higher than usual."
7. Prostate Protection. Researchers say prostate trouble may arise or be worsened by fluid buildup within the gland. Regular ejaculation will help wash out those fluids. Be cautious when suddenly changing frequency -- sudden changes may also trigger prostate problems.
8. Stress Relief. "Sex can be a very effective way of reducing stress levels," Donahey told Men's Health. This is approve by a lot of people, that is why teenagers or young adults suffer much stress than adults...because they can't have enough 'love' (hahah!)
9. Love Will Keep Us Together. Crenshaw says affectionate touch will increase levels of oxytocin -- the "bonding hormone." Oxytocin is a desire-enhancing chemical secreted by the pituitary. Regular oxytocin release may help encourage frequent lovemaking.
10. Hormones -- Naturally. "Regular lovemaking can increase a woman's estrogen level, protect her heart and keep her vaginal tissues more supple," states Donahey.

Information from: http://parenting.ivillage.com/newborn/nmomcare/0,,446m,00.html (what a good article)

The whole thing about this is...making love isn't a bad thing overall, although in the 6th line of the 10th Commandments says, "Do Not Commit Adultery"...making love is just another beautiful thing... and not to lure you guys into sins...I better leave this for your own judgment.

BUT...

This picture show that, if you do not wear any protection, you are making love to aids itself...so, don't save, do buy gloves...

No offense, only providing info
-Ivan Joachim-

Kisses...

Kisses, something I would say it is romantic, it is hot, it is steamy, it is something you do to show your love...kissing is a verb which you totally cannot define it properly cause it has so much thing to say about it. Kiss in its' scientific term is philematology...yah, it is a spelling error here, well, scientific term, what do you expect right? For me, couple at younger age, they kisses more than ever, that is why many youngsters nowadays can stay fit, because, the fact says, you can actually burn 26 calories of fat in just one minute kiss, imagine, you have almost one hour with your couple on bed, rolling here and there, touching and caressing, you had burned more than 1560 calories, that is just kisses, not including those movement which you do, well...I think I better stay at home and do more this kind of 'exercise' with my girl than going out...HaHa!



Now, according to my research, facts saying that Eskimos, Polynesians and MALAYSIAN... rub their nose with their couple more than they kiss, walao~ but when I think back, yah, I do enjoy rubbing my nose with my girl, but than I think I still wanna stick to kissing, since it can burned more calories than rubbing nose. Some more, this nose rubbing process sometime can gets very irritating, so, I still am going to show my love more...by kissing...now, that's what I call love!



Now...I am not posting this batman and robin kissing picture for fun...I am posting this to say something about homosexual's kisses... what does it feel to kiss the same gender? What does it feel to kiss the guy next door? Yucks~ it is like licking your own toe, it might not related, but for me, it still sucks duh~ damn~ homosexuality, should be banned! Some more, it is forbidden in religion. NO OFFENSE, ONLY DEFENSE! (after watching Chuck and Larry, this came out!)

P/s:Guess I am too bored...that is why an idea like this came out...have fun alright with the facts of kissing alright?

FACTS:

Romans kissed each other on the eyes or the mouth as a greeting.

The average person spends two weeks of their life kissing.

Victorian etiquette required a man to kiss the back of a ladies hand.

A standard greeting in Europe is a kiss on both cheeks - could be two. . . could be four.

African tribes pay homage to their Chief by kissing the ground where he has walked.

In Ireland, you will have good luck if you kiss the Blarney Stone.

The scientific name for kissing is philematology.

Longest kiss - 29 hours by contestants in the "Breath Savers Longest Kiss Challenge" in New York on March 24, 1998.

Longest underwater kiss - 2 minutes and 18 seconds in Tokyo, Japan, on April 2, 1980.

First movie kiss - John C Rice kissed May Irwin in the film called "The Kiss" (1896).

Most kisses in a single movie - 127 in the movie "Don Juan" (1927). Mary Astor and Estelle Taylor got all of those kisses from John Barrymore.

Longest movie kiss - 3 minutes and 5 seconds between Jane Wyman and Regis Tommey in, "You're in the Army Now" (1941).

Beware where you kiss!
In some places kissing is a crime - it's illegal in Indiana for a mustached man to "habitually kiss human beings", in Hartford, Connecticut it's illegal for a husband to kiss his wife on Sunday, and in Cedar Rapids, Iowa, it's a crime to kiss a stranger.

This information is from, http://hicards.com/valentine/vkiss.html.Thanks!

Scorpio-A great Kisser:
-Ivan Joachim-