Frustrated Nights...

It had been so many nights since I stay awake, including tonight, I just cannot sleep, I seriously, do not know why...

leaving me with this

-eye of the sleepless night-

To be really really honest, it is damn tiring, you have no attention at all, when you are having class, you simply cannot understand what the heck the lecturer is talking about, you just cannot catch the point, second, you do not have the mood to do anything, you just felt like, you wanna leave everything down and rest, but the thing is like, you just cannot sleep, that is what so fuck up about it...

But I found out something...

Whenever I am around here...I can rest completely with nothing as burden inside my head or my shoulder, I just felt that, nothing shall bother me...I swear, I would not...regret if I die lying beside her, while I am asleep...

She is just like my...comforter...I feel comfortable, whenever, I am around her, (yah rite! what a good reason to sleep in class...LoL)

tonight is another sleepless night like I mention just now, I try to sleep, but I just cannot stop my brain from keep on working...

my modem cannot work just now, damn boring, sit, watch some video that I last time downloaded, sms with my babe, and than, until I ask her to sleep... saying, I would sleep together with her, but in the end, I turn on my light and stay... sorry for lying, but I do not really mean it, I want to sleep...but I cant... so I guess, I am trying to say, I wanna sleep with you... :P

As I stay awake late at night,

I imagine your body lie on my bed,
When I lie down to hug it,
You were not there, no nowhere to be found,
Guess, I use to much of my imagination,

I like to see you asleep,
Although you might just conquer the whole bed,
But I do not mind at all,
Sacrifice anything here, to satisfied everything there

When I stay up late at night,
I wonder a lot of thing inside my mind,
I have millions of thoughts,
And each and every of those,
Contains your name and your face,

Because of you, I exist,
Because of you, I stay alive, breathing,
Because of you, I live another day to love,
Because of you, I put down my pride,
Because of you, I put aside myself,
and put you as my priority...

Because I know...I'll never be perfect anymore
and thinking about it...if life without you
as I stay awake at night...

I need her more than anyone does
-Ivan Joachim-